Do he still love me? :(

Hes too far... I miss him 😔

It hurts

I feel guilty and sad about it. We were planning to spend time together probably this week. He went back to bandar instead of staying at his kampung so he can hang out with me but the moment when he asked when will I be free? I said I dont know..... thats when all the guilty feelings I felt at that time. He said that its better to be at kampung... :( I know when hes at his kampung, theres a lot of things that he can do. Hes totally sad about it. I should've just told him to stayed there..Why am I so stupid?

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IM SORRY ABAAAAAANG! :'(

I cant sleep. Ive been like this since an hour ago. Usually, if I late replying his text.. he would go like this childish-thingy, then when I said sorry and he replied that he wanted to go to sleep, thats why I know I made him sad and maybe mad I think? But I didnt mean to, I never did. I was just busy doing my chores like washing the dishes, eat, resting, watching tv ( i dont call that busy anw) but heres the thing.. I tried everything I could to spend my time with him. I dont understand why he kept on saying that its like I was trying to ran away from him. Why should I? I just wanted to have my own spaces... :( idk what were you thinking of me all this time...? I felt like trusting me was the last thing you did. I know youre out there, reading this.. Could you tell me why?

Its just like yesterday where I was lying down on my bed, looking up at the ceilings, remembering how sad I was when he said he was sleepy and wanted to go to sleep. Now here I am totally wide awake. I dont even know what should I do right now? :(