THIS IS THE HARDEST SUBJECT EVEEEEEEER!

Since I was in year 9, I took P.O.A as my optional subject. Seriously Idk why I chose P.O.A over E.lit?

Three years ago? When I was in year 8, after I got my SPN results, all students in year 8 had to fill up this form which was a registration form of entering to an upper year which is year 9 and another form of choosing subjects for O'level.

I know before choosing any subjects that I'll be taking for my O'level, of course I had to racked my brains to choose which subjects were the best and fit for me to learn in the future right? I know both subject (POA and E.Lit) was hard and I need to think wisely and carefully. If I take POA which mean its related to commerce also. Too bad I took computer when I was in year 7 and 8 so basically Idk anything about commerce-business? pergh! and if I take E.lit.... hmmm... my english was not that good! So think think think I chose POA after all indeed.

OHMYGOD! IT WAS HARD. FELT LIKE WANNA GIVE UP AND CHANGE TO E.LIT!

But cannot, its too laaaaaaaate T.T

Last Saturday, my sir gave us 3 homework which we have to pass up tomorrow buuuuuuuuut when I looked at the question paper.. it was hard, idk how to solve the problems. Now, even I am looking and searching the answers at the internet. Just hoping that it might help me a little bit while doing that I eat cupcake! lapaaaaaaar waaaaah kekeke

Well far enough... I've seen none! I can see my homework papers are very clean and shining somehow.. kekeke xp im tired!

This morning my English and Irk teacher gave us my 2nd assessment paper. Alhamdulillah. Even though I didnt credit for my english but I got credit for my Irk. I know I can do better than this cause there is more time I can change and be ready next time. Yup I got A* INDEED for my IRK! weep weeeeeep happy is me ^^, 

Got home from extra class, I've received a text from my group in WA which was my volunteering group. Yup, I'm one of the volunteer people on the run this 9th June if I'm not mistaken. Oh yeaaaaaaaaah~ CUCI MATA! XDDDDDDDDDDD This is the moment and the only chance that I have to get out from this prison! AHAHAHAHAHAHA 

I wanna cry so bad...

I wanna cry right now but I just can't. If I could wish for one thing I just want you in my life back along with my family and my friends that I adore very much in my whole life. With you, then my life will be complete. I don't need anything else. I just want you. I can't understand why my feelings towards you still can't faded completely? I tried everything I guess? I tried everything I could to make you forget about me and to make me forget about you but you always appeared even without I welcomed you... :( don't make my life so hard. I know this life is so hard to handle it but I didn't expect it to be this way. YOU'RE SO MEAN! T.T

but but but but but this time I know my feelings for you is not that much than before just a little but still I care bout you. Its really rare for you to know my real feelings... Just don't be like this will you? Can you do me a small favour? Help me with this :(

All I can say is 'sigh'

Today was fun. Today was a very tiring day. Today was stressful. Today was so frustrated. Today was a very disappointed day and today was a regret day somehow. Yup that's what I felt right now. Just want to admit it. *sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh*

Just got back from school. Just had my June O'level exam. How was it? I don't know. What subject? English Paper 1. Composition laaaaaah T.T not good on making up a story. There was a two section. In section A, its a must. I have to do it no mater what. "Magazine article-about a foreign student who came to my school for a month to learn about my country" I'm blank. I don't know where to start. So, I just made up a story of my friend from Vietnam, her name is Chau and I don't know if my format of magazine article was correct or not? Seriously I'm afraid if my composition was really out of topic and if I didn't answer what they want... *sigh* In section B, Its a choosing topic. 5 topic were given, I chose number 3. Its about continuing a sentences then make up a good story from it. Still *sigh* Well, my exam started at 2 pm and ended at 3.30 pm. Which it took 1 hour and 30 mins after all but thank god I managed to finished them all in time. We had to be in the hall 15 mins before the exam started. So yeah,, Everything I started with "Bismillah"

Today, most of my class were having their so called "qada puasa" (fasting) which was same goes to me but coincidently something made me cannot do it today *sigh* why o why now? So, my friend treated me. She gave me a bowl of porridge, with gladly I took it and ate it without any doubt. heheh komapsamida

Right now its 8.18 pm. I'm doing my computer project that my teacher asked me to do while listening to my songs inside my files on my laptop. Every each of the songs that I listened to, everything reminds me of you. why o why? Its showing that we spent a lot of time together huh? *sigh* sesungguhnya.... I really miss you a lot but I don't want to admit it. I love the way that you smile, I love the way that you used to be. I just wish I can give you another chance I would love to if I could but its too late cause I know you'll never be here with me, you'll never take that chances. I knew you had changed a lot and that's why you also had changed me into someone else. Me, myself not familiar with this new world, I felt lonely. I know I sound too childish cause I used to thought that we belonged together forever. I don't want to lose you..

GAAAAAAAAH! JIWAAAAAAANG NYEEEE XD ahaaahahahahha I feel great.

Then pendek kan cerita lah ahh... That's the end of it... LATER XX toodles people..

haiyah...

Sorrylah... bukannya aku sombong ataupun apa, aku buat pun pasal aku inda mau karang khusyuk melayan kamu saja. Gila kali? My june exam tomorrow lah broooo... kamu ani, kalau aku layan kamu karang, guarantee sah jadi manja text kamu ah! atu yang aku inda suka... ahhhhh! LANTAK JE LAH!

Sorry eh?

I have to cause I need to focus on my studying. I'm not interested kan betexting sama kamu ahhhh... Right now I already have my bf and I really do like him. Who? My studies. He is my future man! I don't want to lose this time and I don't want to make my family sad or disappointed on my results. So, please understand me just for once? Promise next time after this Oct exam, aku layan lah. Be patience eh?

Thank you for your cooperation.

JUNE IS COMING!!

June is coming and here I am still playing around. It's not like I don't care about it but actually I don't know where and when should I start my revision cause the subjects that I take is only languages. Lately, I know I'm getting lazy, lazy and lazy plus busy. Busy with what? I don't know. I just feel like I'm busy with my studying that's all but I'm always trying to throw away all my laziness and try to work out. So, that's it. heheh

Exactly one week before my birthday.

26th of April 2013,

Nurul Nadira Izzati Atiqah binti Shamely is her name or in short form we called her Nana. She's my twin sister who were born exactly one week before me. So what I'm trying to say here is last week was her born day on Friday. She is shorter than me so sometimes I did bullied her either in school, outside school or even at texting. I know she's more older than me but heeeeeeheeee

She's nice to whoever she's talking to or friend with, pretty from both inside and outside, clever in studying, good in everything except for sports. She's very weak at sports like seriously I'm telling you xp but she's working on it right now. She's always got the best score at our class so I'm a little bit jealous. Why I can't be like her? get the best score in my class? Why oh why? T.T

Yeah, HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY. May allah bless you always and have a blast. Goodluck on your o'level and on everything you do. I will always support you no matter what. No worries. Thanks for everything you've done for me. You played the role in my life as my bestest friend and my big sister. You treat me very well. I'm glad to have you in my life for the whole 2 years in counting and I hope our friendship last longer till Jannah. AMIN and INSYA ALLAH.

Last but not least,

I love you with all my heart and it always be. THANK YOU :*

I love them with all my heart :*

"Oh my god" was the first words that came out from my mouth when I saw the video. What video? It's all started this morning..

Nisah giving me her pendrive(pd), asked me to do something later when I'm home. She said "taz, can you send a file through my gmail? open up my pd, you will see a file and you send it directly to my gmail. I want it tonight, immediately when you're home after our extra class. Thank you" then I said "um sure"

Extra class was end at 4pm but my dad picked me up around 4.30pm. We went to my brother's school to picked him up at 5pm but we've to waited inside our car cause it's not 5pm yet. While waiting for that I checked my phone to know what's going on in there. Having a chit chat with my friends then suddenly Nisah said "taz, did you sent it already that thing that I asked you this morning?" then I was like "oh yeah! I almost forgot but I'm not home yet. IM SORRY!!!" I feel bad cause she said that she needed it as soon as possible.

I thought after we picked up my brother, we went straightly to home but in fact we're going to shopping first indeed. So, I'm a little bit worried cause imma still feel bad for Nisah, I just wish I can teleport myself to my home and get everything done first and then I can freely continue shopping without feeling any guilty at all.

Done with shopping then went home. At home, straightly opened up my laptop to do what must have done. But before that I text Nisah, I asked her once again to make sure what should I do, who knows I send the wrong files right? Then she said "oh, you just open up my pd then you will see a file, that's all" so I followed what she told me. The moment when I opened up her pd. I saw a video with a title saying "TO TAZAH PLEASE WATCH THIS VIDEO" and I was like......... errrr...... "what is this?" instead of searching for a file that Nisah asked me to send, I clicked that video and I watched it without feeling guilty cause busybody-ing on someone's proprietary is a bad thing.

Well that video is what I'm talking about right now.. What's inside? It was a short video from them. It takes 7 to 8 minutes. It's a present from all of them for my sweet 16th birthday. It's showing how much they love me. 3 to 4 minutes was a music video made by their own using Taylor Swift song's "22" they were dancing, singing, posing and doing something that really made me laughed. Then the rest 5 to 8 minutes was a direct speech from them. Individually. Saying something, greeting me and stuff. I was paralysed when I saw the video. I cried. I laughed. Cried again.and laughed again. I was shocked, surprised when I watched the video. I really didn't expect that they were going to make this video just for me. I'm so touched and amazed that how lucky I am to have such a great, extraordinary friends. I don't know how to thank them. I know, just saying "Thank you" is not enough for them but still I keep on saying "Thank you" to them. I LOVE THEM VERY MUCH. I DON'T WANT TO LOSE THEM EVER IN MY LIFE. I need them in my life cause they're part of my life right now from the moment they entered in my life. This makes me love them much more and more than myself xp

After all, now I know why Nisah asking me to opened up her pd. It's just an acted, prank. I HATE THEM FOR DOING THIS TO ME!!!!

But honestly,

I REALLY LOVE THEM WITH ALL MY HEART,

and,

I'm so glad to have them in my life and I appreciate it. This present was the best of the bestest presents I ever had. You guys always made my day. Thank you for everything my friends. Thank you.

Happy 16th birthday to me hehehee xp

Well I'm officially 16th years old right now. Yeay. Nothing change.. just the same old me, cool person :p

Honestly, I'm saying this from the bottom of my heart and I'm being sincere, I'm happy. Really happy. I can't described it or show it to you guys how happy I am right now. You guys don't know how happy I am. Starting from last night when the clock striking at exactly 12 am, there's a lot of incoming text from my phone. Well eventually I knew this was gonna happened. For once in my whole life I cried because of I'm so touched and amazed with all my family and friends out there. I cried every time someone's greet me. In my whole life I've never cried when my birthday is coming but this time I don't know why, I just cried. T.T Tears of joyful.

Actually last night we had family's gathering at my house. Every Thursday's night. We had "sembahyang jemaah and tahlil" like we always do and that night my families light up four lanterns as my birthday. Why four? I'm not sure myself either. I slept around 11 pm. Seriously I'm exhausted so I sleep lah. But when I'm lying down on my bed I don't feel sleepy at all. So I played my phone, checking my phone every minutes. Then when I saw the clock almost 12 am I pretend to sleep cause I know my family will going to my room and surprise me. Yup I'm waiting. But as a results no one is coming to my room. Doesn't matter, thought maybe they're tired. Be positive.

As you know incoming text from my friends. There's a lot of them that I need to reply. In respond, the only thing that I can say is "Thank you." I'm speechless to those who greet me.

Of course people know when is their birthday right? I know it's hurts when no one is remember your birthday. So before, I wish my ex flings will remember and greet me personally. So I waited. I saw his last seen, it kept on changing. So, I thought maybe he forget bout it already. Yes its hurts. At 12.30 my sisters knocked my door and sang happy birthday song for me. I cried again cause I'm happy they remembered. They gave me a cake which supposed to be a surprised cake but its failed cause the cake is melted already. So, I went down to the living rooms with them and ate the cake together and watched running man too XD

We watched till 3 am.. Now I felt so sleepy. I checked my phone and saw incoming text from someone. I opened and read it. I'm paralysed somehow ahahaha thought he forget already but which is not. Its from him. My ex flings. He did remembered. Im happy, smiling from ear to ear. Even now I can't stop smiling. It was like a dream and one of my wish come true. I went to bed with satisfied on my face.

I woke up early and I checked my phone again, ha'ah as expected there's more greetings. Even I checked my twitter and facebook also. I know later we're going out shopping so I took my shower earlier. huhuhu and right now, I'm still replying those text while waiting for my family to wake up and zoom zoom shopping xp

Last but not least, I know I haven't really update my blog cause busy studying with my upcoming exams and I don't have time but as least this time I have time to opened up laptop.Thank you, I really do. I really appreciate it and I LOVE YOU ALL NO MATTER WHAT. You guys have given me what I want and what's the best for me. Thank you :* xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoxoooooooooooooooooxoxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoooooooooooooooxx you know that endless right? XD

Whoop, my eldest sister just woke up and she told me to get ready. See? heheheh later peeps xx